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Wow.
I honestly can't figure out where the last 10 months have gone.
Can't say they've disappeared through a haze of sleep deprivation, considering Connor has been sleeping through the night (and we're talking 10-12 hours straight here) since last July.
It's more like a blur of firsts, celebrations, stroller walks, laughs, melt-downs, new friends, new experiences...
I thought a year ago that the future was scary. It looks a lot scarier now, with the new challenge of finding that "just right" person who is basically going to be raising my son. I wish it could be me, but unfortunately I find myself in the position where returning to work is not so much a choice, as a necessity.
In a way, though, I am looking forward to going back to work. I'm looking forward to regular adult interaction that doesn't focus on baby-related topics, looking forward to using my brain on a regular basis again.
But before that happens, I'm going to make the most of these last couple of months with my little guy, celebrating as he learns new "tricks" (he got himself from lying down back up to a sitting position for the first time today! Yay!), laughing with him when he finds the oddest things hysterically funny, smiling as I watch him with his Dad.
And I'll keep repeating Proverbs 3:5 in my head every chance I get.
"Trust in The Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding"
I honestly can't figure out where the last 10 months have gone.
Can't say they've disappeared through a haze of sleep deprivation, considering Connor has been sleeping through the night (and we're talking 10-12 hours straight here) since last July.
It's more like a blur of firsts, celebrations, stroller walks, laughs, melt-downs, new friends, new experiences...
I thought a year ago that the future was scary. It looks a lot scarier now, with the new challenge of finding that "just right" person who is basically going to be raising my son. I wish it could be me, but unfortunately I find myself in the position where returning to work is not so much a choice, as a necessity.
In a way, though, I am looking forward to going back to work. I'm looking forward to regular adult interaction that doesn't focus on baby-related topics, looking forward to using my brain on a regular basis again.
But before that happens, I'm going to make the most of these last couple of months with my little guy, celebrating as he learns new "tricks" (he got himself from lying down back up to a sitting position for the first time today! Yay!), laughing with him when he finds the oddest things hysterically funny, smiling as I watch him with his Dad.
And I'll keep repeating Proverbs 3:5 in my head every chance I get.
"Trust in The Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding"
It surely can be a momentous task to find the right caregiver to be with your little guy when you have to return to work....and it's not that you haven't been using your brain...you've just been using a different part of it...I found that out! Will be thinking about you as you make your choice!