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Some are self-imposed.
Some are from other people.
But there are too many of them.
I can never live up to all the expectations people have of me, nor the ones I have of myself.
After all, I'm only one human.
But it's distressing. I'll put in a really good effort some days, then others I get so overwhelmed that I literally just curl up in a corner and try to shut everything out.
There are so many, from so many different sources...
...The expectation to be a loving, considerate, self-less, hard-working wife...
...The expectation to be a loving, considerate, thoughtful daughter and daughter-in-law...
...The expectation to be a loyal, considerate, thoughtful friend...
...The expectation to move...
...The expectation to produce children. (or grandchildren, or great-grandchildren, depending on the source)...
...The expectation to be fiscally responsible...
...The expectation to make wise decisions in everyday life, every day of my life...
...The expectation to be a loyal, productive, understanding, Christ-like member of a church...
...The expectation to be "flexible"...
...The expectation to be a loyal, productive, hard-working, conscientious employee...
...The expectation to live up to my potential...
...And the list goes on....
I've been wondering lately why my stress levels have been getting out of control. When I sat down and looked (really looked) at what's been happening in my life lately, I've realized that I have a lot of expectations placed on me, and I'm having a very difficult time living up to them all.
It causes me great distress when I let someone down.
It causes me great distress when I let myself down.
Sometimes I want to climb up on a hill, or the roof of a building, and just scream to the sky, "ENOUGH!!!"
I guess it's a case of prioritizing: whose expectations are the most important? Which expectations are the ones that really count in the long-run?
It's the type of question that I need a time-out from life to really be able to answer. There's no easy, clear-cut answer, because so many of the expectations are legitimate and important both in this life and the next.
But a "time-out" is not on the agenda for quite a while yet.
Right now, I'm just tired.
Tired of trying.
Tired of failing.
Just.
Plain.
Tired.
Somebody throw me a life-ring here?.....
Some are from other people.
But there are too many of them.
I can never live up to all the expectations people have of me, nor the ones I have of myself.
After all, I'm only one human.
But it's distressing. I'll put in a really good effort some days, then others I get so overwhelmed that I literally just curl up in a corner and try to shut everything out.
There are so many, from so many different sources...
...The expectation to be a loving, considerate, self-less, hard-working wife...
...The expectation to be a loving, considerate, thoughtful daughter and daughter-in-law...
...The expectation to be a loyal, considerate, thoughtful friend...
...The expectation to move...
...The expectation to produce children. (or grandchildren, or great-grandchildren, depending on the source)...
...The expectation to be fiscally responsible...
...The expectation to make wise decisions in everyday life, every day of my life...
...The expectation to be a loyal, productive, understanding, Christ-like member of a church...
...The expectation to be "flexible"...
...The expectation to be a loyal, productive, hard-working, conscientious employee...
...The expectation to live up to my potential...
...And the list goes on....
I've been wondering lately why my stress levels have been getting out of control. When I sat down and looked (really looked) at what's been happening in my life lately, I've realized that I have a lot of expectations placed on me, and I'm having a very difficult time living up to them all.
It causes me great distress when I let someone down.
It causes me great distress when I let myself down.
Sometimes I want to climb up on a hill, or the roof of a building, and just scream to the sky, "ENOUGH!!!"
I guess it's a case of prioritizing: whose expectations are the most important? Which expectations are the ones that really count in the long-run?
It's the type of question that I need a time-out from life to really be able to answer. There's no easy, clear-cut answer, because so many of the expectations are legitimate and important both in this life and the next.
But a "time-out" is not on the agenda for quite a while yet.
Right now, I'm just tired.
Tired of trying.
Tired of failing.
Just.
Plain.
Tired.
Somebody throw me a life-ring here?.....
