J9's Property

I'm on a rollercoaster right now. Not a literal one (although right now I feel like I am!), but it's been so crazy the last week or 2 that I can barely hold a coherent thought in my head.

Allow me to explain:

High: we signed the papers last night to list our house!
Low: the house is nowhere near ready for showing. We had very high hopes that we could list it and go on vacation, so they could show the house while we're not in it. Not gonna happen...

High: I've been promoted at work!
Low: I'm swamped with work, and the expectations are now higher than they were before...

High: I'm gonna be a mom!
Low: I can't get a referral to an OB, or call a midwife until I know where I'm going to be living by next spring....which brings us back to high/low #1....

Do I sound a little overwhelmed? Probably because I am! We are, as we speak, trying to do everything we can to clean up/finish up the house, while packing and preparing for a road trip...

I need a vacation....

I know, it's been forever since I posted. Again. But, let's face it, there's only been one thing I've actually wanted to write about, and I didn't want to let the secret out until now.

That's right, I'm having a baby; expecting; pregnant; preggers; preggo; in the family way; have a bun in the oven; (have I missed any?)

It's a bit scarey, really. I don't know a whole lot about wee ones! Anyone in my family will tell you, I HATED babysitting as a teenager, and would find any excuse to say "no" to anyone who asked me to. Didn't matter how much I would be paid, I just really didn't want to do it! Especially if they were asking me to babysit really little ones. Diapers and me don't mix too well! I also just didn't know how to relate to kids, how to converse with them, how to play with them, I just never really learned what to do with them.

So, here I am, wondering how I'm going to do this!

It's always been part of the "plan" to start a family. Someday. In the future. Eventually. When we're settled in a new house, in a new town, and we realize that we don't have any more excuses for delaying. But it was always one of those "someday" ideas in the backs of our minds. My attitude has always been, if The Lord wants us to have kids, we'll have them. If He doesn't, we won't.

...I guess He wants us to have kids.....(or at least, one, anyway! There's only one in there!)

Don't get me wrong, we're quite excited! Especially now that the oh-my-goodness-we're-having-a-baby shock has worn off. And the grandparents are Very excited. (yes, mom, I saw you go up to the cash desk in the children's store!) And I have to say, it's been fun seeing the reactions as we tell people. With everyone so excited for us, how can we not be excited ourselves?? Of course, we've had a few weeks to become accustomed to the idea, so we're not quite so giddy anymore. (well, I'm not anyway... I think Doug is another story...)

I guess what it all boils down to, is that we've started on a brand new journey, one that will take a lot of faith, a lot of patience, and will last the rest of our lives. Which isn't a bad thing! Like I read in an article about "40 reasons to be glad you're pregnant": we'll never be bored again!!